It’s like you’re screaming but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could that be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless like nothing can save you. And when it’s over and it’s gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back so you could have the good.
You wonder why I’m insecure? Because there are girls out there who look gorgeous without even trying. When they wake up they look like angels. When I wake up, I look like I just got out of a war. Those photogenic girls who look good in every photo. When someone takes a photo of me, my face looks half retarded. They don’t even need to dress nicely and they’ll still look good. How they can capture your attention just by walking past. I want to be able to do that.
I hate it when I meet someone and we’re actually gaining feelings for each other and its actually something, but some shit has to happen and everything between us falls apart. Then as time moves on, time from time you wonder about the “what if’s” and the things you could haveshould have done to help prevent that almost there relationship from completely tumbling down. And sometimes, you wish you could just go back and change it into what you wanted it to turn out from it.
This person can make you so mad, to the point where you would raise your voice & argue, to the point where you’re saying all types of things out of anger, to the point where you would start tearing up, to the point where you feel like you want nothing to do with them. But, once you calm down, once you look at them, all those feelings come back & you know you don’t want to lose them. It’s crazy how the person who can upset you the most is also who can make you the happiest.